Short story essay: I came out.

I don't expect you to understand, I just want to be loved.

"What do you want? You need to tell me now if you want this to go anywhere!" That is one of the first things Annabel said to her. She had no idea what she was doing. She was confused. She couldn't even decide what to eat for breakfast and Ann wanted to know what she wanted from her relationship with her.

It was May, and I fell in love with a girl. To some extent, I always knew that I was bisexual, but never said anything to anyone. It was a secret with myself. However, I never really understood it. I recall times when I looked at some of my female friends inappropriately- I usually corrected those thoughts and I could get away with it because of my, ever-rescuing, social awkwardness.

I remember a conversation when a good friend of mine told me that she kissed a girl. I was shocked, yet so intrigued. Wondering if would ever be able to kiss a girl. I always wanted to. Once again one of my personal secrets.

Eventually, I met a girl who was pretty and funny and we got along well... She came to me for Christian help. "Help me be straight. I don't understand it... I don't know what it means." Looking at her, I thought, "oh dear, heck I'm not even completely straight, but let's give this a try. " To those around me, I was the pastors' daughter and the straightest of them all, for I knew the consequences of not being straight.

The more I helped her, the more I liked her. That holiday went by and we never saw each other since. I knew then completely, that I was definitely not a heterosexual female.

A few years went by and I was in a heterosexual relationship with a very good friend of mine. In the third year of our relationship, I said that I might be bi. Near the end of our four years together we had a conversation. "I think I'm definitely bi, there's someone who has caught my eye", in complete earnest she said this to him.
Then May came around and I met this woman. Smart, funny, sexy, beautiful and she had the dirty mind that matched mine in its complete entirety. I fell out of love and in love with her. She didn't realise the depths my love until after a year of being together. She wasn't even sure about me.